I prayed that my baby would be healthy. I dreamt of who he would become and how he would impact others. I wanted what was best for him. But sometimes I don't know what's best. Sometimes what is best is what I am most afraid of.
When my pediatrician looked me in the eyes and told me that she thought Elias had Down Syndrome, tears poured down my face. I knew what was best for my baby, and Down Syndrome was not it. Down Syndrome meant that my son would be odd looking. It meant that my baby would be made fun of. It meant that I would lose all my freedoms and I wouldn't be able to have any more children. It meant that people would feel sorry for me and feel awkward talking to me. People would stare. He would be made fun of. His life would not be full...
Or so I thought.
I was wrong about all those things. Very wrong.
I thought I knew what was best for Elias. I thought his life needed my thoughts, dreams, and plans for him to be able to enjoy life. Even though I am Elias' mom, I don't always know what is best for him. There is a bigger picture...and it's much more exciting than mine.
Today is one of those days when everything within me swells with love for my son and other people with Down Syndrome.
My words may not pierce your soul to see value in people who were created to live with Down Syndrome. But I know God's words can, I pray they do. I hope that you can see true beauty as you live your life. I hope that you can see a glimpse of what I get to see everyday.
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth--Psalm 139:13-15
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand... --Psalm 139:18
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Check out Casey Wiegand's blog...she was so sweet to share a piece of my heart today.