An Unexpected Gift
One year ago I turned thirty and I was given the most beautiful and unexpected gift. A gift I didn't know to ask for. And in God's perfect timing, He waited. He waited until I was ready.
I was one in an audience of many broken and hurting souls. But we all had one thing in common—hope. And as I watched the woman who was going to speak being escorted to the stage, I saw someone who was an outcast. Someone who was despised by this world because of how she looked on the outside. She is shut out and looked down upon.
As she began to speak, something happened to me. At first I saw the parts of her that were broken and unused. I could only see her deformities—and then she opened her mouth. She exposed the innermost parts of her soul. She spoke sweet and healing words. She talked about her struggles and how God reminds her of what's important in this life. How God reminds her of the beauty that He sees in her.
And as she spoke truth, I was changed. I was reminded of what I want to be like and how I want to think.
"Man looks on the outward appearance but I look on the Heart." —Samuel 16:7
And I began to weep inside. So much of my life has been wasted on comparing and measuring and outward appearance. If I can't be content with how God has made me, then how will I ever be content with how God has made others?
And for a year I have been thinking about this, and desperately asking God to help me see people as He sees them. How precious it is to be able to look at someone how God values them. And how disgusting and awful to only see and judge someone from their outward appearance.
I want to value the things that God values. As soon as I forget what is valuable, I hope He gives me grace to understand His mind. To hold and treasure what He loves.
And as thirty-one has changed my body and left it's marks of age, I am thankful for the beauty that only God could create within. And I love life more today than I did a year ago, because of this gift—this woman.
I still have a lifetime of opening and discovering this precious gift.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." —2 Corinthians 12:9