A Love So Strong (Erin Litteral)
I remember sitting down with Erin for the first time. She was so gentle and thoughtful towards me. We had both been through a lot in the 8 months prior to our first conversation. She was a breath of fresh air. We shared our thoughts and emotions and realized very quickly that we had a deep bond. How sweet to have a mom like Erin to look up to. She is so beautiful, and I know you will get a glimpse of her beauty as she writes to you.
I couldn't wait to be a mother. Then it happened and the world became scarier. I had all these fears and emotions I did not expect. Then there is the love so strong that it hurts at times. I was handed these tiny, little, fragile beings who just entered this great, big, unsettling world. I quickly learned how much more I needed to rely on the Lord in my life and theirs. He is so faithful and has entrusted these kiddos to me. I can't do it well without His help and I just hope in the end, I bring God glory in such a task and even getting to witness the "fruit" (as Natalie's Mom shared). As the verse says, "I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth." Our girls are 10, 6 and 18 months. Each is so individually unique and special in their own way. While the honorable man of the house goes to work hard everyday, the four of us are hardly ever apart. At times it can be exhausting and trying, but not more than it is rewarding and fulfilling. Each day is an opportunity to walk, teach, and impress upon them the necessary truths and values they so desperately need. We spend our days learning new things, working together, and trying to help and serve each other. We love when we get to go to Target, out to eat, or meet up for fun with friends. I know one day I am going to look back and wonder where all the time went. At times I can find myself taking it all for granted and but I am grateful beyond words to be with my girls. On any given day, I am growing and learning just as much or even more than they are. I am blessed to know the unconditional love of a mother through my own mom. I go to her often and treasure all her wisdom. The most important thing she has taught me is to love and respect the Lord with all my heart, treasuring His Word. She is a source of strength for me and has been there for me through every peak and valley of my life. It is because of her that every time I think I am okay over some painful issue, I see or hear her and break into tears. She's the girly, frilly, sparkly one that my girls are in awe of every time we're together. She's walked through her own ups and downs through life humbly and I love her so much. It is amazing how God has created women differently and given us certain desires and qualities specifically for children. I want to be a great mom. I'm a slow learner and constantly looking to glean from the strengths of moms around me. As a Mom, I love that I get to meet my girls needs, be their comfort, protector, guidance and even get into the trenches with them for those tough lessons. I am realizing what's important to them and then trying to make that important, however little it may seem to me. I can still be so selfish. I am learning to apologize to my kids when I am wrong, which doesn't always come easy. I am learning to slow down and let go of those things of least importance, as I can be a busy bee. I'm coming to realize that actions speak louder than words and that I need to do less talking and more modeling. I see the value in praising often and understanding the vital importance of getting to the heart, not just the action. I am so grateful to God's Word to show me how to be a mother. Confession: Christin—we have the same! The last two times I've taken my kids through McDonalds for lunch, I ordered those 3 chocolate chip cookies and quietly ate them for myself!
Thanks Erin! And remember, I'm giving away a coffee cozy to two random commenters before Mother's Day!